Soltera

Have you ever experienced a moment where a truth that got hidden in the messiness of life is once again revealed? That is a beautiful moment. It's like entering a wide open natural space and breathing deep. Your awareness of the process of taking in a breath and then releasing it is heightened compared to the day-to-day. Do we even think about breathing on an average day? Probably not in a deep, reflective way.... Yet change our environment and something that our biological self often does with no connection to our emotional self all of a sudden has meaning. It's meditative. It's refreshing. It's healing.

Recently God reminded me of something in my struggle with my singleness that refreshed my soul. I was encouraging a friend in regards to relationships when familiar words started flowing from my lips, words of comfort God had spoken over me just a few months prior. As I was sharing these thoughts a joy started to grow within my heart. The joy of reclaiming lost truth.

A few months back I was beginning to feel very settled here. I was making plans to move into my first apartment, I was feeling more comfortable and competent in my job, and saw new friendships forming. The only piece that was still missing was a significant other. I felt ready. The topic came up at work, among friends and family, and often became the theme of my thoughts. It became more of a nagging need that I felt compelled to fill by countless conversations hoping that some how one would spark a connection and lead to an introduction (a friend's friend or so-and-so's brother).

Time passed and I found myself very much still single and as frustration began to build I could see how it was distracting me from the rest of my life. I cannot place the moment that I heard God speaking into my life His truth on the matter. I only remember that it continues to resonate in my life and heart even if I don't always do the best to acknowledge it.

Beautiful and precious child, why do you fret so of things to come? I have a good plan for you and know the desires of your heart, but I long to bless you beyond what you imagine for yourself right in this moment. I know the pains of your heart run deep. That men have not treated you with the respect or kindness that you deserve. I cannot allow just any man to have your heart. No, that won't do for you my child. My blessing will be on a man that walks with me, a man of peace and quiet dignity, a man who will adore and affirm you, a man that will be committed to caring for your heart for the rest of your days. He will love you for exactly who you are. There will be no need to battle with worry or despair about the "rightness" of the relationship for I will join your journeys together in my peace and joy.