A change of heart

Last week was an incredible struggle for me (and honestly my first two months have been a challenge)....I have been having an extremely difficult time accepting that people care about me here and really doubting that anyone actually wants to get to know me. I felt lost, alone, confused, sad, angry, frustrated....I think every emotion under the sun made it´s home in my heart last week, and sometimes more than one at a time. I couldn´t even express what I was feeling when asked because I had yet to figure it out for myself. I just wanted to retreat away from it all. I felt like all my dreams for my time here were fading away and that all I would be able to take back with me was my pain and frustrations.


And now? How am I know? I am in love with life. God makes all things new. All I can say is that He was able to work a miracle in my heart. Instead of holding on to a certain idea of how things should be, I have been more willing to experience and explore something different. I am just letting things go, and trusting that God has something beautiful in store for my time here. God has become more of a priority and therefore has had a stronger presence, and that in turn has affected every other facet of my life. I feel like I have a lot of joy and a lot more understanding in life. This is the happiest I have been since arriving here. I am going to try to push myself to step out a lot more from now on, and to take a advantage of the learning opportunity I have here.